Good morning dear friends, Just wanted to check in with you. I went to the doctor yesterday and got a really good report. I had been in Tulsa for a few days with my son and daughter-in-law and two of my granddaughters until yesterday morning.
Off and on for two months (mostly on) I had seemed to have a spirit of despair, hopelessness and depression. The death of my nephew, Matt and my knee replacement surgery seemingly the triggers for the symptoms--
My daughter-in-law and granddaughters prayed over me on Wednesday and it seemed from that moment on, I started getting better--not only my mental outlook but my physical symptoms as well.
I have had many problems in my lifetime but for the most part I am a very happy, upbeat person. Going through the last two months and all that they have held for me have given me a new understanding for people who face life on a regular basis like this. And I understand so much more than ever Paul's words from Roman's--
I do feel the need to reassess a lot of things in my life--number one that concerns you I guess is whether I am supposed to continue with my blog--if I do, I have no inclination of what direction it will take--I am at a loss at the moment as to know what to do with it.
The one thing I do know is this--God is faithful and He has not let me down. He was always there--in the middle of the many nights of tossing and turning in extreme pain and seemingly slipping further and further in to that black hole of despair, He was there.
One of the things that led me through this dark valley was Michael W. Smith's very first Christmas album. If you have never heard it, I hope you will give it a try. It is the most beautiful, uplifting, worshipful collection of God-honoring music I have ever heard. It played continuously--every night for many nights all night long--on my I-Pod.
My favorite song from the album is All is Well. When the DIL mentioned above married my son, it played as I walked down the aisle to place our family's candle by the Unity candle.
For those of you who have faithfully held me in your thoughts and prayers, I am eternally grateful. I hope to make it back to your blogs on a regular basis to keep in touch and grow our friendship ever stronger.p.s. and yes I know my blog header still says "September" and you will know I am really on my way to recovery when I get that rectified. smile