Groping along here--trying to find my way.
I did not grow up in a denomination that celebrated Lent but have been trying to meaningfully do so the last few years.
I am disappointed--Why? Because I can't seem to find the right Lenten readings that are speaking to me what I need to hear at the moment. Is that even what I should be striving for?
I long to find something that will just speed this journey along--but I am beginning to realize I can't.
I must trudge through this wilderness with Him--if I want to grow to be like Him--
The distance to the cross was not made easier or shorter for Him--so I will plod along here one step at a time, one breath at a time, one revelation at a time.
One day down and thirty nine more to go--how will I feel, how will I be different at the end of this journey?
After all, isn't that what we are striving for--a change in us--
to know Him more fully
to serve Him more faithfully
to love Him more fiercely
to glorify him more fittingly
I want this to be a glorious journey but I am finding pain--
Pain when I realize the depth of my sin--
Pain when I realize the cost of the cross
Pain when I realize the agony of turning one's back upon His Son
Pain when I face the absolute reality of my own mortality--
Isn't that what Ash Wednesday is all about--facing up to that reality--
So that I--this is what I must realize--So that I
So that I can go freely
So that I can live abundantly
So that I can have eternal life
The pain is part of the fulfillment that will come at the end of this journey--
I must be faithful to take one more step with Him--
At the end of this journey I will come to realize and fully know--
Col. 2:9, 10a
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Update: I am reading along with shereadstruth.com advent plan
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