Since we have been in church every night (for many hours each night except last Saturday night when our church did not meet) for over a week, I decided to skip my Bible reading this morning. I had been up until 4:15--very bad storms until after 2 and then just couldn't sleep after that--and woke up late and exhausted.
As one guy said to me in the lobby of the church last night, "This praying for hours is exhausting." And it is--battle is exhausting and that is what we are in--a spiritual battle for our families, our nation, our planet, our souls, our very eternal lives--
It seems that God has dealt with our church on a specific, different issue each night for well over a week now--and we are tired! But I have to say it is a good tired--you want to keep going back to the battle, digging in, making headway for the next generation.
Night before last we were challenged to ask God to show us people we had aught against or whom we knew had aught against us and spend some time reconciling those situations and circumstances--at least doing as much on our parts as we could do--so I spent time this morning writing letters to some people from my past asking for forgiveness for my actions.
Yes, some of them were actions, some were reactions--but it doesn't matter--I don't care who was at fault, I just want to stand clean before God so that He can purify His bride and get us ready to lead thousands of souls to Him.
After spending some time in restitution, I decided to read Oswald Chambers and this is a portion of what it said:
"You no more need a holiday from spiritual concentration than your heart needs a holiday from beating. You cannot have a moral holiday and remain moral, nor can you have a spiritual holiday and remain spiritual. God wants you to be entirely His, and this means that you have to watch to keep yourself fit. It takes a tremendous amount of time. Some of us expect to "clear the numberless ascensions" in about two minutes."
The very idea that I thought I could take a holiday from my Bible reading just because I had been in church every night is ludicrous. And I almost let satan get the victory on that one.
So now that God has "set me straight," I will go read my Bible, pray and meditate as I should have done from the beginning. Such an awesome privilege, God forgive me for even "entertaining" the idea of not doing what I know is right.
I love you, sweet friends.
Dianne
